That's all
Sunday, Oct. 28, 2012 @ 12:01 AM

Feeling redundant and useless.

Could I please come with you?

No, I thought so.

Judging is a full-blown alcoholic, grade A fuck-up, and all around hypocritical asshole.

Nothing has changed.

New day, same shit.

Why do I try so hard to gain acceptance?

When will I learn that I will never be like the rest of you?

Pity is particularly hard to swallow and to take in wholly.

Here I am -- no more pretense or masquerading.

What you see is what you get, and she ain't pretty.

She will never meet your expectations.

She will never be DTF or uninhibited.

She will never be what you crave, what you desire. She will only be there to fulfill your most base needs.

She will never be good enough to join your family or even your social circle.

She just exists as a last resort; the last step before being on the street.

Suicide is a sin, but we can look the other way for her. She is not even worthy of a basic moral code. She is disposable and convenient. She is temporary, so you don't have to feel embarrassed. She is a number in your Time2Track program. She helps you get where you want to go, but she is not a means to an end.

She just exists; her true purpose is unbeknownst to us. We do not have the drive or inclination to find out why.

But really, a man ejaculated in a woman 26 years ago. That is all.